The other day, I received some really hard words to swallow. I can't explain the amount of pain I felt as I walked into my house and sank to the kitchen floor and cried bitterly. At the time, I didn't hear my yellow lab, Gracie, running to meet me. I was too hurt to hear her as she cried beside me, trying to get me to accept her. Often times, that's how we are with God. We become so blinded by our hurt, fear, anger, and arrogance to hear the cries of God. God always hears and answers our cries, but rarely do we do the same.
For a long time now, I have felt the heavy weight of God on my heart. I had my life focused on all the wrong things, and I think back on it now and understand why things have gone the way they have. All things happen for a reason, and that is because God is always trying to pull us back to Him. I strayed from Him, allowing myself to love people more than I loved God. When my heart was broken and I had failed myself, I found myself looking face to face with God, and He was telling me, "I will never fail you, even when those you love do." That's the truth that I had been running from, and now I laugh because I was ridiculous for ever trying to. The things that seem so important to us in this life are nothing compared to the God who is always beside us.
The day that I fell to my knees and cried on the kitchen floor, Gracie was trying to tell me the same thing. She clawed at my arm and cried desperately, wanting me to know she was there. She would never fail me, even when the people I was living my life for did. God never abandons us, even when we ignore Him. He persistently calls to us until we are ready to answer. I have realized that my weaknesses only make me strong. Christ died weak and broken on the cross, but through God's strength we were saved. The pains I have felt throughout my life are not something for me to feel sorry about. They have made me strong and will only continue to make me strong. We should boast in our weakness, just as it is stated in 2 Corinthians. We are strong in God. We will make it, we just have to listen to the words of God and accept him, just like I finally did for Gracie when I picked myself up off the floor and held her close to me.
Don't settle in your weakness. Pick yourself up, because that weakness will bring you strength through God. Listen and accept God, because He is always calling out to you to give your life to Him.
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